Post 1
I need someone to talk to, but I have no one to talk to. So I decided it would be a smart idea to talk to a nonliving computer. :)
I'm just really sad with my life.
I don't like who I am. I don't like how I look. I don't like how I feel judged where ever I go. I feel like I don't have anyone to relate to. And all these feeling in my head is making me feel overwhelmed.
As a Sagittarius, I have to let my feeling down in order to feel good again, therefore I can't stop talking. I have to share things to let myself out.
I have so much homework from science. There are slides and slides of homework on that presentation, and I starting to doubt my capability of completing work. All of my other friend have completed it and they said it was VERY easy. Why can't I do it?
It's not only that. I feel like I have no control over thing. For instance, there's this program called the IB program. This program can let you go to a different high school, though you live in an area thats goes to certain high school. I really want to go to High School A, but my parents want me to go to High School B. High School B is the best school in the county, and as I am pretty good at studies, my parents want me to go there.
On the other hand, High School A is still great, just not as better. All my best friends and friends are going there. The people living in my 'hood are going there. I'm worried if I go to High School B, I'm gonna loose all my friends.
You see I've never really had friend. Back in New Jersey, where I used to live, I was bullied a lot. I had a few friends, but they'd always ditch me to go play with the popular kids. After living in New Jersey for all my life, we moved to Maryland. Here, I made so many friends in the period of merely 6 months. I love this people and the friend seem more accepting than at my old school. They acknowledge my talent and know me for ME! (haha taylor reference) And they all go to High School A.
On the other hand. High School B is recognized for amazing studies and academic success. But it doesn't have any friends. My mom's friend told me that when she moved from India to the US she didn't have any friends, and now she made some here. But, to be honest, she had a choice to move, while my parent really, really want me to go there.
And my parents know that I'm happy here. They know I hadn't had any friends in NJ. But, they never went through the same bullying that I went through.
My mind is battling between choosing friends or life.
I need your help guys. High School A or High School B?
That was my first blog. Wishing y'all are happy, beautiful day. Clearly, I'm having a freaking bad day.
Your friend, Abhi
